I wonder if all eldest grandchildren/child faces the same fate as me. Make it "favorite" grandchild.
家家有本难念的经
But my this scripture seems uber hard to read.
To speak the truth, I only inform my ah ma & mum I'm going TW 2 weeks ago. Yeah, 1stly, I dun wan them to worry too long n start thinking of ridiculous suggestions. N then I wanna confirm everything so that I can face the firing squad (& they cant alter anything already oso).
But seriously speaking, I actually mentioned I had plans to go TW like 2 yrs ago. I repeated the statement again last yr, when they wanna make me go Genting to be ah sum. But who remembers? Who bothers? Who LISTENED?
NOBODY!
Now they're saying I nvr tell them earlier. 2 yrs ago? 1 yr ago? What was dat? How early u wan? A decade ago? U ppl nvr ever listen to me. TV on so loud for wat? All deaf? Then tok in loud pitches to overcome the tv. Thats 恶性循环. No end till everyone gets sore throat n no pt is put across.
I've been in this family long enuff to noe that I will get refuted for everything that requires me to be out of reach/out of singapore out of their CONTROL. Even thou my ah ma mentioned, if u say u wanna go, we'll let u go one.
NOW WHO'S STOPPING ME!!??!??!!
Ok ok, u're not stopping me. Bcos u cant. BUT U'RE SUBCONSCIOUSLY WILLING ME NOT TO GO! I feel the power overwhelming me. Every sentence u say, there's a hidden agenda. DUN GO TAIWAN.
Whats with take care of urself over there and enjoy when the hidden agenda is DUN GO? Freak lah. I feel damn terrible now can. Like I did some super hideous sin jump into yellow river oso cannot turn yellow.
I've had too much experience of asking them and get refused. Think St John's. Even in the company of all the teachers n caretakers, I was still forced to stay back in school n watch some stupid film while my kakis are out learning survival techniques.
How abt the time I wanna go shopping in JB with my mum? She jus wanna rush back home as soon as possible bcos she's tired of lugging all these luggage. And so, wat did I do?
Take a look at my passport. I sneaked to JB last yr.
Whats the use of saying it'll be allowed if u asked? I asked!! I got refused. So I 先斩后奏 lah. N who taught me dat?
U! The caregiver who thinks everything u all do is good. And everyone out there is BAD.
If I wanna be bad, I'll be bad 10 yrs ago. Or 5 yrs ago. I'm still the little tame pearl white that only runs ard in the cage.
Even my now became angel pearl white gets to run abt in my room.
Then they keep saying they'll be less worried if I'm going with agency. Ya. How many agency fatality accidents did u see on the papers? A lot. Bus fell down cliff, overturned, blah blah. I think its more dangerous to go with them.
But at least got leader. LEADER? U MEAN LEADER?? They LEAD u to colluded shops and force u to spend there for them to earn their commission. If not, they'll turn black in the face and not carry on with the tour. It really happened to my colleague. Its worse with agencies, not to mention the extra $$ and forgone freedom and flexibility. Once u've signed in, u're under their beak and order.
Y only 2 ppl? Bcos the rest no $$. And who was the one who disapprove of me staying out to socialise? Dat = less frens = less ppl lah. Who disapprove of going out with guys? SO only 2 girls lah.
It all routes back to wat was done ages ago. CANT THEY SEE THE CAUSE AND EFFECTS!??!?!
And do they noe that I lead a stressful working life? (Even I DUN LOOK DAT STRESSED?) Do they noe that I wanna break from ALL MALAYSIAN COUNTRIES?? My mum commented that every yr I get to travel on business wat.
SO?? I DUN WANNA GO MALAYSIAN COUNTRIES WHERE CAB DRIVERS DUN ON METERS!!
Dun say its bcos I nvr share the day with my folks. They nvr listen. And no use telling if end of the day, I'm the one facing and solving the problem. I strongly believe in this pt. There's no use wasting ur breath if u're the one who's gonna solve it in the end.
And I think Sarawak and Melaka is 12412374697235 times more dangerous than TP lor. And do they noe that I kana BLUFFED to go climb some haunted mountain hole in Sarawak? If I tell them, they'll say its my fault again for not rejecting them. How to reject when some queen say something abt teamwork. I dun think its any teamwork when its all wat u WANT TO DO, and forcing others to go according to ur plans.
Its impossible to balance office politics with ur own thinking unless u're someone powerful. Like the queen.
At least in TP, u noe wat they're tokking. If u wanna say something abt them, jus speak in darn good english or rotten jap lah.
And to make things worse, my uncle came yest n start to scare my ah ma with stories from (NOTE!) CHINA. Hello! I is going TP. TP is NOT IN CHINA!! Dun make matters worse can?
I have no FREAKING say in the family. Nor in the office. NOR ANYWHERE! So I keep quiet. Dun blame me, since NO ONE's listening!! Everyone seems to be INSISTING on their own ideology. I pull no weights.
Jus dun care abt me. I'll be happy dat way. Serious.
My ah ma was suggesting that I bring my mum along. THEN?? I think I might as well bring my dad along, so dat my mum got company mah. Then where's the break?? If my mum n dad doesnt mind exploring on their own, I dun mind paying. But obviously my ah ma is sending them on a mission. Means I cant do a lot of things = no fun = more stress = no break.
I threw them my iternary (I can nvr freaking get it spelt correctly). They could have specifically asked for it long long ago if thats wat they wan. They keep asking repeatedly abt the hotel names (I cant rem) flight details and stuff. They dun understand english. I need my aunt to give them proper details of wat was written in the piece of paper.
I think we did the iternary BETTER than travel agencies lor. Wats the fuss abt dunno wat bus to take. Its all WRITTEN in the iternary.
But throwing them the iternary proves not much use, since my mum can still ask me why my flight back is so late. She insist its 9pm. It was 6.25pm, written CLEARLY on the iternary.
Even giving my ah ma they all the iternary, they can still spread the WRONG INFO. Very irritating arhhhhh.
How much more breath m I going to waste EXPLAINING wat was already self-explanatory?
But at least now she's not insisting my mum to go with me. (where to get the tix and stuff. Even can, she able to run so many places meh?) I dun wanna bring a burden but I dun mind planning a family trip there the next time round.
The whole extended family noes I going TP. News spread like wildfire, covering whole of SG. Then all these think-they're-doing-good-by-sharing-experience-but-is-only scaring-my-ah-ma-only relatives start to pollute my ah ma.
The funniest one was. They allow me to go Japan or 'ang moh' countries as they're more polite. Ahem. I beg to differ. There's a lot of fightings in ang moh countries lor. And Japan? Hmm.. I need to brush up my language b4 I venture there.
I live in a weird family. Its been weird since I was born. Sad to say, I grew used to it.
没有去过的地方不要去. 但就是因为没去过才要去第一次嘛. 不然就一生都旋转在同个位子上. 世界也只有那个位子一般大.
Who ask u all nvr bring me go ANYWHERE b4? I've only been on a plane for the 1st time on the Sarawak trip.
Now I earn my own keep. I use my own hard earned $$ and hard work to reward myself with a trip to TP oso such a big hoo-ha. Then I work for fark? I'm feeling alienated from my products. Its like a capitalist society. For now, I jus wanna re-enact and edit lost pieces of my childhood can?
Do all "favorites" get protected like this? I'm already.. 24. Not 12. Y my younger than me female cousin can go Japan for ITP???? Y i get nagged like no body biz for 8 days in TP??
I shld faster find someone n marry. BREAK THE INVISIBLE BOND~~~~~ Where's the prince?
Sat faster come. I dunno wat other stunners they gonna 出 again. At least dun let me go on holiday and still have to worry abt u worrying me can. Dat = no break already.
See, I'm supposed to be studying. I spent the last 1hr + on this. Wats with ALL the DISTURBANCES?? LEMME RELAC CAN!??!??! My $$ oso NOT EASY TO EARN ONE CAN?!??!??!